What Have You Endured





What Have You Endured


In 2006, a half decade after the end of the Yugoslav civil war, lived a man who went by the name John. He was a factory worker. His home and family were casualties of that war.

The chipped Formica tabletop was cold under John’s forearms. He picked at his sandwich—turkey and Swiss on white bread, same as every day. The factory cafeteria hummed with a low thrum of anxiety that had thickened over the past few weeks. Since the announcement about overtime cuts, it felt like the air itself was heavier, laced with worry.

A trio of men—Ray, Earl, and Bobby—were clustered at the next table, their voices rising above the cafeteria’s din. John tried to ignore them, but their frustration was a physical force, radiating out into the room.

“Bank took my truck this morning,” Ray’s voice cracked with anger. “Three hundred a month, that payment. Gone. Just…gone. Now what am I supposed to do?”

Earl chimed in, his face ashen. "They're talking about laying off another ten percent next quarter. If they close down altogether? My house is going to be foreclosed on. Everything we’ve worked for…" He trailed off, shaking his head.

Bobby, the youngest of the three, slammed a fist on the table, rattling their trays. “Easy for you guys, maybe. But what about those with families? Mortgages? College funds?”

Ray caught sight of John standing nearby, preparing to walk out of the cafeteria. "Hey! You over there. New guy, right?" He gestured in John's direction. "What do you think about all this? Got any brilliant ideas how we’re supposed to keep our lives from falling apart?"

John hesitated, then offered a small shrug. “There are other possibilities.” His English was precise but laced with an accent he couldn't entirely shake—a subtle echo of his homeland that always marked him as an outsider. He didn’t meet their gaze directly, instead focusing on the chipped edge of his own tray.

The three men moved closer, surrounding John’s table. The cafeteria chairs scraped against the linoleum as they shifted in. Their faces were tight with desperation and resentment.

"Other possibilities? Where?" Bobby scoffed. "You think everyone can just walk into another factory job paying decent wages? Especially around here?"

Earl added, “It's not like there's a line of factories hiring right now! This place was the only one holding steady for years. Now it’s going under."

John remained silent, his gaze sweeping over their faces, briefly lingering on each one before moving on. He noticed the lines etched around Ray’s eyes, the tremor in Earl’s hands, the barely contained fury in Bobby's jaw. He understood desperation; he just didn’t offer comfort easily.

“Easy to say ‘there are other possibilities’ when you just got here from commie land," Ray spat out. “You haven’t built a life here, invested in this community. You don't have anything to lose!"

After several minutes of escalating frustration, John finally spoke, his voice low but firm. "It is manageable."

He didn’t elaborate, offering no explanation or false promises. It was a statement devoid of emotion, yet it somehow intensified the men's anger. He allowed himself a fleeting thought: they have no idea.

“What did you say?” Bobby challenged. “You just brush it off? You think we haven’t thought of that? What do you know about hardship, huh?” He leaned forward, invading John’s personal space. "What have you endured?"

John blinked, the question catching him slightly off guard. A muscle ticked in his jaw. “Endured, what is that.” The words felt inadequate, even to his own ears.

Ray rolled his eyes. “It means what you've been through, man. The hard times. The pain. What’s life thrown at you that made you so calm about losing everything?"

A ghost of a smile touched John’s lips—a slight upturning of the corners, barely perceptible. It wasn't amusement, but something deeper, more weary. He met Ray’s gaze directly for the first time, holding it without flinching.

The men interpreted his silence as arrogance. "Look at this guy," Bobby sneered. “Probably came here with a suitcase full of money and thinks we’re all just lazy.”

Ray stepped closer, towering over John. “You think you've got it figured out? You sit there, quiet as a mouse, like you haven't suffered a single day in your life."

The veteran in the cafeteria walked over to them—a grizzled man named Hank with kind eyes and a stoic demeanor—intervened. He had been quietly observing the exchange, his gaze moving between John and the increasingly agitated trio.

Hank held up a hand to silence Ray. "Hold on a minute," he said, his voice gravelly but firm. “I think you fellas are missing something here."

He turned to address Ray, Earl, and Bobby directly. "You’re all worked up about losing jobs, homes… understandable. But you're judging this man based on what? Because he doesn’t shout from the rooftops about his pain?"

Hank paused, then looked at John with a knowing glance. He had noticed something in those quick sweeps of John’s eyes—the way they scanned each of them, assessing angles and soft targets. It wasn't fear or aggression; it was awareness, a calculated preparedness that spoke volumes. He also saw the subtle tension in John’s hands, not clenched, but ready. And then he noticed the ring on John’s hand – a simple gold band with three Cyrillic letters. He remembered seeing a similar ring worn by a dead soldier during his tour in the Balkans. Hank only saw one ring like it but remembered it as it stuck out to him.

Hank asked John "Serbian?"

John's expression softened almost imperceptibly. “Proud Serbian.”

Hank continued, “This man has endured more than all of you combined. You think losing a job is the worst thing? Trust me, there’s darkness out there that would make your worries look like a walk in the park." He looked back at John, offering a sincere apology. "I apologize for my friends here, sir. They're just scared and taking it out on you.”

John met Hank’s gaze, his expression unreadable. After a long moment, he nodded slowly and said, “We do not need to speak of this again." It wasn’t an order, but a quiet acceptance of the apology, a dismissal of further discussion. Hank looked at each of the three men and firmly spoke “Veterans stick together, he apologized, you three should too.”

The three men mumbled apologies, shamefaced. Hank gave John a subtle nod, acknowledging the unspoken understanding between them. The cafeteria settled back into its anxious hum, but for John, it was just another Tuesday, another meal eaten alone, carrying the weight of experiences he would never share. He knew, with a weary certainty, that in this new country, some scars were best left buried beneath the surface.

John and Hank began to talk, sharing stories over lunch each day.


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